On a train from Antwerp to Amsterdam I hear my dead uncles voice. The words I can’t understand. I don’t know Dutch. But it belongs to him.
We are on our second bottle of wine. We drink it from clear cups we took from a Starbucks in the train station. The sun has already set.
I start to scan over the tops of the seats for him. After the third or fourth row of passengers, I stop myself. I don’t really want to find him.
Between sips and silly jokes with Juliet, I listen for him. Smile to myself when I can hear him over the sounds of strangers whispering, tracks scratching miles, and red wine pouring. I hope, maybe a few times I even pray, that whoever he is sitting with is memorizing his voice.
I drive around with my mother’s ashes when I’m lonely
palming the box
tapping my fingers on the sides as Patsy Cline sings love songs I will always cry along to
asking my mother in a voice just above a whisper at stop signs
or red lights
if I’ll be okay
to threats to discover one another, navigate
how we might react.
An indication of how we might
say things later
when it’s 3 am
on a Tuesday
and we’ve been drinking since
Sunday.
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Nasty! is a collection of radical non-fiction essays that provide crucial commentary on what it’s like to be a woman today. Bold stories from fierce women who are not ashamed of who they are and what they do.
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All killer, no filler. The anthology features the following table of contents:
Missy Suicide- “Monster”
Sabrina Dropkick- “Fucking Fat”
Rocket- “Buddy”
MP Johnson- “How To Accept You’re Trans in 11 Easy Steps”
Cervante Pope- “a black type of feminism”
Julie Rea- “A Year in the Life of a Sad American Liberal”
Diana Kirk- “Tampon Trigger”
Rhonda Jackson Joseph- “I’m That Chick Who Starts the Conversation”
Kim Vodicka- “Maximum Insecurity Dick Prison”
Boodawe- “You’re So Nasty!”
Jessie Lynn McMains- “They Say She’s a Slut”
Kathryn Louise- “The United States of Rape Culture”
Eleanor Rose- “I Didn’t Ask For This”
Amber Fallon- “Sleazeball Games or How I Got Banned From Match.com”
Tara Dublin- “Here’s To You, Mrs. Robinson”
Jennifer Robin- “Raphael and the French Ghost and the Moon”
Jacqueline-Elizabeth Cottrell- “Come Here Often?”
Jacqueline Kirkpatrick- “The New Unnatural”
Devora Gray- “I’ll Meet You in the Middle”
Edited by Tiffany Scandal
Cover by Matthew Revert
Out Winter 2017
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is where i grow to hate you
the man at the gas station said to the cashier
who refused to look up from her phone
tears pooling on the finger stained glass of the counter
only Lucky 7s left on a spool beneath
Sunrise for Jack Kerouac
(*as published in Drunk in a Midnight Choir on 4/29/15)
I gave Jake the last inhale
Watching a willow tree in a cow pasture turn to gold in the
Acidic sunrise of a July we tried for years to forget.
The long streams of branch swaying in a breeze that bumped my gooses
From collar bone to sternum
Raised buttons of oooooh, of ahhhhh,
Of push them, push them – – we will never get out of here
if we don’t move faster
Before I fall apart
Jake falls asleep against the wind
Shielded dreaming of a riddle on a Popsicle stick
His tiny fingers clutching it
Jamming it into his mother’s wringing hands
Asking her to just tell him what it means
that he can longer read French (as I flip the tent stake
Mallet around and around, leav
ing bruises in the ground, wondering if it is God or my child I should apologize to-)
I write tiny poems on the backs of his dirty toes
Odes to my dead father and Jerry Garcia
Jerry, someone once told me, drove a Beamer
As he beep beeped out of my drive
Way into the horizon like an Icarus in a silver bullet
Chariot master
Pieces of himself burning alive to be Matisse’d for as many years as there are
Hearts
A demon boxed inside blue exploding all over the page
Onto
me & on
toyou